Prayer- "God, I believe. Help me in my disbelief. I love. Help me when I am not loving. God I see those who have experienced SO much life. Encountered so much. They continuously bring me back to the love of God and my love for those around me. Neighbors, brothers, sisters, lovers, friends. Please remind each of us in the places we live, work, play, move, exist... remind the world, that You are love through how we love each other. Please help shape me. Please use the moments that are harder, awkward, tense, the moments that create anxiety and fear to speak to me about the ways I have projected onto others my own darkness. The ways in which I am jealous, the way in which I have been living an unexamined life. The way in which other forces are creeping in. I ask for light to see clarity- light to clean me out- light to clean us ALL out. Light to shine into the dark places of the soul. I come to you now in humility, saying "please shape me" I thank you for the forgiveness and the new life and the resurrection that is found in Christ and Christ alone. I trust in you. I trust in Jesus. I ask you now to bring his light and his love into my life. AMEN."
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My Words...
I received a journal from someone very special the Spring of 2009. I hadn't written in a journal for more than 10 years, and when I did, they were the bitter, trite ramblings of an insecure 19 year old...
This journal, a simple spiral book, bound in black linen, has blank pages and a picture of a young boy playing in the sand on its cover, is not remarkable at first glance.. but the thought that someone cared enough to give me an outlet for my thoughts, is.
Inside, it held an inscription and a bookmark with a quote. The inscription is honest, real, heartfelt and personal to me alone. The quote on the bookmark however, i will share:
"walk with the dreamers, the believers, the courageous, the cheerful, the planners, the doers, the successful people with their heads in the clouds and their feet on the ground. Let their spirit ignite a fire within you to leave this world better than when you found it." -Wilferd Peterson
It took me a while to open up to my new present, and more time to find the words that i wanted to fill it with. Though dramatically less bitter, and still at times trite, it turns out I actually have quite a lot to say...
Now, the Fall of 2011, I have bought a new journal. Time has gone by. Love has come and gone. I am changed. I am moving forward on a search that is only my own. I am excited, and joyful, and sometimes scared and sometimes very vulnerable.. but I am lucky enough to share my journey with the people who I know to love me and the connections in my life that are honest and true. I start this new journal in a season of deep hurt and fear but I know I'll make it through- hopeful. better. Hurt passes. As seasons always do. And with the passing days I strive to grow and live fully.. honestly... in the truth that is this life, in the truth that is Gods love and unique path for me.
Inside, it held an inscription and a bookmark with a quote. The inscription is honest, real, heartfelt and personal to me alone. The quote on the bookmark however, i will share:
"walk with the dreamers, the believers, the courageous, the cheerful, the planners, the doers, the successful people with their heads in the clouds and their feet on the ground. Let their spirit ignite a fire within you to leave this world better than when you found it." -Wilferd Peterson
It took me a while to open up to my new present, and more time to find the words that i wanted to fill it with. Though dramatically less bitter, and still at times trite, it turns out I actually have quite a lot to say...
Now, the Fall of 2011, I have bought a new journal. Time has gone by. Love has come and gone. I am changed. I am moving forward on a search that is only my own. I am excited, and joyful, and sometimes scared and sometimes very vulnerable.. but I am lucky enough to share my journey with the people who I know to love me and the connections in my life that are honest and true. I start this new journal in a season of deep hurt and fear but I know I'll make it through- hopeful. better. Hurt passes. As seasons always do. And with the passing days I strive to grow and live fully.. honestly... in the truth that is this life, in the truth that is Gods love and unique path for me.
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