I think its about forgiveness...

I was once in a relationship. It lasted just under three years. It was the longest, sometimes happiest, sometimes most destructive 'relationship' of my life to date... It ended over a year and half ago. Contact has been minimal. we have moved on in our own ways. Though we have grown from being together and from being apart, it is over.

Today, I received a card. It read;

"You are very special and I wish you all the good things your heart can handle. Take extra care of that big heart. You mean so much to so many people, including me." Love B

I needed this. Not because I needed validation from this person who is part of my past, but more just the sentiment it carried and the door it opened. Just when you get used to people being gone from your life, somehow, the important people find their way back in.

It can be unexpected and somewhat sudden. However- it proves that when someone means a lot to you, or you have shared something with someone [-a life -a love -pain -loss...], it is a beautiful and refreshing thing when they enter into your life in a completely different capacity.

The hurt we inflicted on each other in the past, the resentment, the power struggle , the mistrust, the anger and the silent games, are now, all ... somehow... gone.

A blurry memory.

We realize how much negativity we hold onto and how much it prevents us from truly loving as God intends. Once released, the power of this 'unconditional' love can not only mend the pain of the past- but also rebuild the foundation of the future.

Forgiveness.

Love.

For these seemingly unoriginal ideals to actually be enabled, we need to first apply them to ourselves and then direct them outward toward the people that make up our lives, the past relationships that have ended, the strangers who cut us off in traffic, the parents who wronged us, the friends that have disagreed with our opinions... everything and everyone we hold on to.

Forgive our own imperfections then: Forgive the past. Forgive the pain. Forgive the resentment. Forgive all the things we hold onto that limit us and hold us back from loving ourselves and loving each other.

wholly. unconditionally. once again...
LOVE.